Susanne Middelberg

Title: Susanne

About the Photo:

This portrait is taken when I felt that I lost everything I trusted in .
After I became seriously ill, my partner told me that he didn’t know whether he would stay with me. He said he did not want to be with a sick woman.
We had had a long, loving relationship. I asked him not to give up on our love simply because, for the first time, we had to experience a difficult time. He agreed that he would do this.
Two weeks after our conversation he cheated on me with a woman he had never met before. Then he left me to begin a relationship with her.
I lost all trust in the man I deeply loved. I lost trust in life and in myself because I truly had felt and believed that I was living with an honest and loving person. 
After more than 1 ½ years, my grief was still so strong that I could not allow myself to trust again. I felt insecure, useless and abandoned.
I asked Dennis if he would be willing to help me to understand why he did what he did.
He said: “It does not fit in my life anymore to help you.”